You know, I’m going to take this time to actually APPRECIATE that God genuinely sent His Helper, the Holy Spirit to guide and to teach me.
Thank you Lord!
15 “If you love Me, keep My commandments. 16 And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you. 18 I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you.John 14:15-18
I feel like here lately, I get so discouraged when I uncover something fake and false. False doctrine, false prophet, false church, false almost EVERYTHING.
I feel bad when I get warnings, when I feel convicted, when I feel burdened, and it makes me feel like I’m not good enough.
It’s enough to make me feel like I’m not a good enough Christian. That I can’t TRULY be born again if I keep falling into these pitfalls. Maybe my sins aren’t washed away like I thought they were, perhaps I’m not truly saved.
Sometimes my biggest self shaming tactic is when I tell myself “a true Christian wouldn’t fall for stuff like this!”
But then… the Holy Spirit gave me a wonderful revelation!
I didn’t fall for it.
It may have caused me to get a bit confused, but ultimately, in every single situation I can see how the Holy Spirit had consistently drawn me into testing the spirits, discerning things and allowing them to unfold. Whether it took a minute or a week, eventually I found my way out of a dark hole.
And some people never do.
1 Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God; because many false prophets have gone out into the world. 2 By this you know the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is of God, 3 and every spirit that does not confess that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is not of God. And this is the spirit of the Antichrist, which you have heard was coming, and is now already in the world.1 John 4:1-3
If God were truly displeased with me, He would’ve handed me over by now. I would not get these constant checks in my spirit, I wouldn’t be able to tell when something feels off, I wouldn’t be drawn into prayer of confusing situations, I truly wouldn’t constantly be repenting and begging for forgiveness, I wouldn’t feel the burden of knowing when I was potentially doing something wrong or regressing… I’d have NONE of this.
For awhile, getting so much of this chastisement can make one feel that they aren’t good enough and can’t be the Christian God wants them to be. But it’s true when the Bible says, “God only chastise the ones whom He loves.”
5 And you have forgotten the exhortation which speaks to you as to sons:“My son, do not despise the chastening of the Lord, Nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him; 6 For whom the Lord loves He chastens, And scourges every son whom He receives.” 7 If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom a father does not chasten? 8 But if you are without chastening, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate and not sons. 9 Furthermore, we have had human fathers who corrected us, and we paid them respect. Shall we not much more readily be in subjection to the Father of spirits and live? 10 For they indeed for a few days chastened us as seemed best to them, but He for our profit, that we may be partakers of His holiness. 11 Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.Hebrews 12:5-11
I feel like in every single one of my prayers, I plead more and more for a sharpening of discernment and lol perhaps all these “tests” are a result of what I keep praying for.
I suppose, how can you truly gain something that you aren’t trained to use?
That’s just like the other early morning, I was watching some YouTube videos. I stumbled across the channel of what I initially perceived as a very humble, genuine Christian who was doing a lot of videos on home decorating! 😀
But for SOME reason, the Holy Spirit would not settle inside of me. This YouTuber had put out a devotional book that initially I would’ve purchased, but the Holy Spirit told me no, not to consider getting it.
I would read through the comments, but every comment was in favor of this YouTuber, giving their own testimonies and how they felt the Holy Spirit even lead them to this YouTuber’s channel.
I was investigating so hard til I felt like I was the one doing too much, maybe I was operating off a bad spirit myself. I kept trying to pray on it, asking to be released of this feeling if nothing was wrong with this person because I just couldn’t see it for myself!
Eventually, the Holy Spirit begin to reveal to me that this person was a progressive Christian. This person most likely practices “Christian Yoga” and the Holy Spirit did not want me to get the devotional book because it would most likely have me meditating on subtle false doctrines that had the potential to lead me astray.
Once I learned that, the chastisement released from me and the Holy Spirit said I was ok to watch her house decor videos, but just be careful of some of the things she would say.
I went into prayer over it though, asking what really was the purpose behind such a strong conviction, and the Holy Spirit ministered to me that that was a test to discern seemingly harmless spirits.
Spirits that you don’t think are betraying but… actually are. It reminded me about this video I watched about the early case of Jim Jones and how he was perceived to be a healer and cured people.
Before I watched it, I never truly remembered what he looked like. I just remember not having a completely settled feeling about it, but after seeing miracle after miracle, I wanted to start believing he was a true man of God, but I couldn’t rest in that completely. Then at the end of the video it was released that he was actually Jim Jones.
In my heart I felt tortured that I almost started to believe in him, but I kept dismissing the fact that the Holy Spirit kept guiding me.
I have been learning the true importance in valuing discernment over signs, miracles and wonders.
4 A wicked and adulterous generation seeks after a sign, and no sign shall be given to it except the sign of the prophet Jonah.” And He left them and departed.Matthew 16:4
A sign can come from either God or the devil, but it is only with DISCERNMENT that you will understand the origin behind it.
I had also been watching a couple videos about these signs popping up in Israel. Suddenly God “writing His name on the wall”, this blood red water phenomenon. And everyone is believing this to be Jesus coming back.
As much as I had been reading about Revelation, can you believe I almost bought that too? But then, the Holy Spirit hit me with yet another realization.
WHO is coming to bring signs and miracles? The Antichrist!!!!
Signs and wonders so legitimate, it could potentially deceive the elect!!!!
23 “Then if anyone says to you, ‘Look, here is the Christ!’ or ‘There!’ do not believe it. 24 For false christs and false prophets will rise and show great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect.Matthew 24:23,24
Once I realized that, I felt tortured again! Like how could this stuff keep slipping by me!?
But then the Holy Spirit reminded me today that it’s NOT slipping by me, for God is continually leading my every step.
Studying the Word for yourself is imperative!! Praying to have His words committed to your memory and inscribed on your heart is non negotiable at this point.
So, instead of moping around in my sadness of constantly being spiritually reprimanded, I’m going to take joy in the fact I get reprimanded at all! The Holy Spirit is truly teaching and guiding me in all ways and now, I see that is one of the most invaluable blessing God has and will ever give me.
Even if God doesn’t bless me with anything else, I am my most grateful that the gift of discernment is one of the gifts I got!
I implore you to test every single Spirit, even this blog post you read. Stay in prayer and study the Bible for yourself with the leading of the Holy Spirit for He is your most valuable teacher! It is through the Holy Spirit that you will get led to the truth. Spiritual discernment is very, very precious in this day and age and I don’t think I can stress that ENOUGH!!
You don’t need a sign or wonder. You need chastisement and discernment!
Love you. Mean it!