Soooo… It WAS…


Something in my spirit told me that that out of nowhere anxiety/depression/hopelessness was because of the spirit of this day.

I have always loathed this day, part of the reason why October is probably one of my least favorite months.

But I have to say, yesterday? October 31?


Yesterday, God had me indulge in researching the Bible from morning til night. And it was just purely out of interest and excitement at all the prophecies and the revelations I was having (including the research on Dinosaurs and the revelation behind it lol).

I looked up yesterday and it was time to go to bed lol. I hadn’t moved from my bed all day, didn’t go outside, I was literally just chilling reading through the Bible about different things.

And it didn’t hit me til today.

How much God protected me through my obedience. I woke up from a peaceful sleep this morning and God immediately brought to my mind John 8:36:

If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.

John 8:36

And then it hit me. Well… the Holy Spirit did anyway lol…

At the end of my last bad dream that morning on October 30, I remember someone in the dream saying “the only way to get out of it is praise!!! You gotta praise it out!”

Which is why I tried to listen to gospel music but it still wasn’t working.

But ultimately, God was just instructing me, like I wrote about in my previous post, to stay focused on Him.

I literally kept my interest in the Word all day yesterday, and had peace and happiness the ENTIRE DAY. I went from Revelation to Matthew to Job to Genesis back to Job then back to Revelation! Lol

Although, I did wake up and pray that the Holy Spirit guide my day lol and that’s literally where He had me. And it turned out to be the most blessed day from sunrise to sunset!

In these times of trials, it is truly not with our own strength that we will battle… it is with the Lord’s.

The Holy Spirit is my Sword, so why was I trying to fight with my own hands?

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;

15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;

16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.

17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God

Ephesians 6:10-17

Ya’ll… after this year, I HATE Halloween. As many years as I’ve lived through this day, I have never been mentally attacked like this. But you know what?

I consider it joy.

They just proved that I’m truly a child of God.

Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

2 Corinthians 12:10

So, thank you! 😇

Love you. Mean it!

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