You know, I, until this morning, lol I feel like I’ve been going toe to toe with the devil in my prayers. I would get attacked in my dreams, wake up in a sweat and immediately spend at least 20 minutes of my prayer canceling, rebuking, and spiritually swatting at the enemy.
I genuinely felt like I was doing the right thing and that the more I got attacked, the more good I was doing.
Until last night it hit me when I was just kind of thinking aloud to myself saying something like “success to me is being able to sleep at night…” and then I thought about it as in… why couldn’t I sleep peacefully at night?
I always know that the Holy Spirit is about to teach me something new when I get hit with a revelation like THAT lol. And I did.
After an hour of midnight praying and you guessed it! A good chunk of time spent rebuking the enemy and every nook and cranny I could remember, I fell asleep and had another dream that woke me up in a sweat.
I was frustrated a bit, cause I specifically prayed against bad dreams…..
Did you catch what I said?
Well, the Lord woke me up lol.
Immediately, I was drawn to watch a video from Allen Parr on YouTube. One specific video that constantly kept creeping on my timeline lol!
And as I watched this video, suddenly… it just hit me.
HELLO MA’AM! Did you know you’re waging war with an already defeated foe?– Sudden Revelation
When I thought about it, and maybe this is me being oblivious and still a baby Christian, but when I think about how people prayed in the Bible… it was in reverence to God not to fight with the devil.
They would either be interceding for others, begging for mercy, or giving God glory…
And how I prayed… was to wage war against the enemy. It was clear that I was praying out of a fear of losing a battle Jesus already won in my behalf.
Pray With POWER.
In yet another subtle way, I was somehow giving the enemy power thinking that the more high and mighty and aggressive my prayer was toward him, the more he would lose.
But…. he already lost.
That’s the point I need to drive home to MYSELF. God has already made me promises that will and currently are coming to pass. It is very much already ordained and established. If anything, the enemy can only delay me, which in hindsight, he did by getting me to focus so much on trying to keep what I wasn’t even in danger of losing.
I have been reading, praying, and walking in God’s Will everyday. Learning and abiding and doing all I can to build my faith. And somehow, the devil wants me to believe that he can somehow overpower the Holy Spirit that lives within me.
4 You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.1 John 4:4
And the more I feed into that, the more he builds on that. Because essentially, I’m giving into fear. BOOM. Open door.
So I got up this morning… opened my Bible up to Psalms 27 (David having confidence in God’s Power) and Ephesians 6 (putting on the whole suit of armor).
Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14 Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; 18 praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints—Ephesians 6: 10-18
And I just started to thank God in prayer. I thanked God for all His promises, everything that’s coming to pass and all that will come to pass. I thanked Him for the gift of salvation, for His mercy and loving kindness, for His grace and forgiveness.
I thanked him for protecting me and shielding me. I spent a few seconds to rebuke the enemy and cancel any attacks, and went on giving praise and honor to the Most High. I thanked Him for cleansing my dreams, for protecting my friends and family.
I thanked Him for drawing me, us to a life of daily repentance. I thanked Him for the Holy Spirit, for all the revelations and guidance I get, for all the discernment He pours upon me. I thanked Him for everything I could think of lol.
And suddenly, all the anxiety and fear I had just washed away.
I felt so much more at peace than I ever had after waking up from a troubling dream.
It became quite obvious to me that there is a stark difference in praying against the enemy and praying to God.
I had already kind of started to feel this in my recent prayers whenever I would start going into my aggressive spiritual warfare prayer lol. As if the Holy Spirit was trying to nudge me not to go there, that it was unnecessary.
And I gotta admit, it was kind of hard NOT to go there this morning, but the more I showed gratitude for what God had already assured me of instead of barking out a prayer out of fear of losing something, the easier it became.
I feel the peace again, finally.
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.Philippians 4:6,7
The more I looked at even the accounts of Jesus and the 12 Apostles, they did not focus on beating down the devil. It was always a simple line of “The Lord rebuke you”, “I say to you come out!”, “Get out!”.
Yet Michael the archangel, in contending with the devil, when he disputed about the body of Moses, dared not bring against him a reviling accusation, but said, “The Lord rebuke you!”Jude 1:9
When I think about it, Jesus clearly was not giving the demon 20 minutes of His time, lecturing them. He gave them 1 minute, and the other 19 were focused back on His ministry.
It’s not to downplay deliverance because obviously, Jesus cast out devils, Jesus healed, Jesus rebuked… but Jesus also kept it moving too.
And I think that’s the part I’m starting to understand. It’s not to say don’t give attention to rebuking or deliverance, but it shouldn’t overrule reverence to God. Time spent with God should be just that… time spent with God.
Not time spent ordering God to make fire rain down upon my enemies, rebuking them every other second in the name of Jesus lol. I will admit it, that’s where my prayers were heading.
And that’s how I knew something was off, because I would start to feel bad that I was spending so much of my time and energy on it…
1 minute! And then get back to God. Stop arguing with the devil. Because then you start operating out of fear and that is clearly not of God.
Behold, I give you the authority to trample on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means hurt you.Luke 10:19
Love you. Mean it!