I have undoubtedly jumpstarted my dormant love for crocheting recently. And along with that, came an increase of seeing yarn in my dreams.
At first, I was sure that this was probably just a flesh dream, that obviously, I was dreaming about my new hobby. But no, at this point, yarn definitely meant something in my dreams.
So I’ll just note that around this time, I had started to grow really impatient with the way things were rolling out in my life. In short…
I didn’t feel like anything was happening.
Suddenly, my desire and drive to pursue God’s Promises for me were waning fast and all I wanted to do was throw my hands up in defeat, call it quits and be done with any and everything I felt led me here.
Around this time is when I started to pick up crocheting… a LOT.
Because it took my mind off of my sadness while at the same allowing me to create such beautiful things! Finish some of these projects I’ve been off and on with for the past couple years lol.
And that’s also when I started dreaming more and more and more about YARN!!
In my dreams I would buy yarn, I’d be seen crocheting blankets I’m actually working on in real life lol, I’d be wearing actual finished crochet pieces that I have. And it would be a prominent thing in the dream that I crocheted it.
Just a big focus on yarn and crochet.
So finally, one day, after my umpteenth dream of yarn, I prayed fervently for understanding about why I was dreaming of yarn so much.
They weren’t bad dreams necessarily, but apparently, I wasn’t catching the hint lol.
I was led to go into the Strong’s Concordance app on my phone and search up the word “yarn” to see if it appeared in the Bible.
And low and behold, it showed up TWICE! One time in 1 Kings 10:28, and second in 2 Chronicles 1:16. Both talking about King Solomon purchasing linen yarn…
So then, I clicked into one of the verses to see what yarn was in the Hebrew language. Yarn is number H4723 in the Hebrew Strong’s and this is what I found:
The Hebrew word that references yarn is “miqveh”, but get this.. along with referencing linen yarn… this was also what it meant:
And I’m just like… 😑… really?
Lol it really got me right in the heart because I was feeling really on the edge and a footstep away from turning around and running back, even after all I’ve gone through up until this point.
Something continued to stick out to me in this definition and that was “Subjective Confidence” and so I went ahead and looked it up. A quick Google search said this:
Thus, subjective confidence is modelled by the logic underlying the calculation of statistical level of confidence, and represents the assessed likelihood that a new sample of representations will yield the same choice.University Press Scholarship Online
Or in other words, understanding a pattern of the past and believing that a new situation that shows similar patterns will reap the same result…
Which is exactly what I’ve been experiencing personally. That my whole life seems based on taking a leap of faith that I see no way out of and everything working out in the end.
It built a level of trust in me over time that my spontaneously adventurous decisions would somehow work itself out. Because it always did.
But here, in this situation, it’s probably one of the most spontaneous leaps I’ve ever taken in life and it just got so overwhelming, I wanted to find a way out and leave but I just felt stuck.
Thus, the panic crept in, as did all the unbelief, the anxiety, the worry, and blatant stupidity.
Feeling like gravity had finally caught up with my free spirited nature…. which, let’s be honest, it’s a faithful nature, not just free spirited.
And if that alone wasn’t enough of a reminder, H4723 also refers to Strong’s number H6960 which also refers to waiting…
Immediately, it brought to mind Habakkuk 2:3 because a couple days prior, the Holy Spirit Ruach led me to read the book of Habakkuk and this was one of the verses that stuck out to me:
3 For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.Habakkuk 2:3
So basically, God is saying…
“Don’t Give Up!”
And it makes sense now that I understand it altogether.
To sit and knit yarn into something beautiful takes time. Not only time, but financial resources as well. You put a lot of love into what you craft.
The fact that most of my dreams consisted of me crocheting projects that required LOTS of time like blankets and sweaters and stuff really brought to light that the promises and visions God has given me take TIME.
I can’t expedite this process because, in a way, He is personally handcrafting these promises specifically for me and I have to wait. There’s no other way around it.
When you’re trying to crochet something, or knit, you can do all you can to move faster but at the end of the day, you’ll spend a few minutes to hours to days to months to YEARS trying to finish whatever it is you started.
And it’s hard trying to wait ok? Let’s be honest. You can liken it to needing a blanket cause you’re cold and rather than wait for the best one to be made, you’d rather go get a cheap one from the store that will tear up in a couple years.
But then you realize, even if you wanted to go to the store to get a blanket you have no money to get it… womp.
So I’m sitting here…. waiting for God to “finish my blankie”… 🙃 and you better believe I’m gonna keep this blanket forever! Kinda like Chuckie Finster with his Wawa…
Love you. Mean it!