Ok, firstliness, I know this blog has suddenly become super spiritual and biblical here lately lol. I suppose that’s where my journey is taking me, and this blog was started to basically just be an online diary of my thoughts and rambles.

Maybe eventually I will actually try to do some legit teachings but I was just convicted and born again a couple months ago. I’m still trying to train myself here lol but for right now, I’m just documenting my thoughts and experiences as I strive to strengthen my relationship with Jesus Christ.


Let’s just talk about something that’s been on my mind a lot. DECEPTION.

Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.

1 John 4: 1

Being fresh in this walk, I feel I’m getting convicted left and right about people and the doctrines they push.

Honestly, I won’t lie, it’s kind of started to sadden me, making me question if I’m really the born again Christian I thought I was. Again, here comes my human errored thinking making me believe that because I keep getting attracted to different things, that I’m a terrible Christian.

Well, I feel like the Holy Spirit has been revealing to me that if I really were that bad off, I wouldn’t be taking note and heeding these convictions that I get. I could very well just ignore those unctions and continue to be falsely led, losing my discerning eye… So… there’s that.

But it just really pains me to really realize how much deception is out there and more so… how much it skews the lines of truth and lies.

I think we all can agree that the devil copies and mocks everything God does, right?

But man, have you ever considered how good he’s getting at copying?

We shouldn’t overestimate the devil nor should we underestimate him, which I feel was partially my trap.

I felt soooo assured that I was saved and protected by God (which I am) that I could never fall for the deceptions of the enemy. Which… in hindsight is truth.

By God’s grace and discernment, I have constantly been able to have revealed to me false and deceptive practices, even from people who look legit. But!

It’s obvious that I could easily lose this ability if I stopped consistently trying to seek God. The devil has gotten just that precise with his counterfeits. He’s even counterfeited the Holy Spirit! (Ya’ll heard of the kundalini spirit?)

Last night, after coming across some info that I’m still trying to verify about preachers I genuinely like listening to and have learned a lot from… I literally cut everything off and just started praying in tears.

Because I have been feeling a yearning in me as well to, well, speak on God and the Bible too. In a small way though, I’m still very clearly trying to deepen my knowledge of the Bible.

But I don’t know, suddenly I just felt convicted to pray to God, the one true God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob and all of Israel, and ask Him for forgiveness and to please control my every step AND my mouth for I didn’t want to spread false doctrine.

I asked Him to deepen my desire to keep studying and researching cause I know I’ve been slacking on the personal Bible study this past week with all this moving around. It’s just gotten so hard and fighting against the flesh is no JOKE!

When the Bible says to test every spirit, it legit means EVERY. SINGLE. SPIRIT.

Even this blog post you’re reading, TEST IT. Pray to God and ask him to discern MY spirit and if it’s good for you! If it’s something you can trust! I’m just that serious about this!

If I could ask it and know it would come true, I would pray and ask God to truly save us all so that every single one of us could enjoy everlasting life in Heaven! I desire nobody to end up in Hell.

But the reality is, that’s where most people are going, not just a few. The Bible made it clear that most people would be led to destruction.

13“Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. 14Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.

Matthew 7: 13,14

I don’t know know who that entails, I just pray I keep a seat in Heaven and continue to show love and spread the truth to others. Not so that they will believe and trust in MY words, but so that they may be convicted and inspired to pray and seek God for themselves.

I feel like God has been allowing me to learn bits of truth from different sermons and pastors and when the lessons I need have been taught, THEN He reveals to me the deception behind them and I get moved into someone different.

I think the overarching lesson is that I should just stay focused on the message and not get wrapped up in the people behind it. I’m learning a lot of biblical truths, but it just kinda sucks to be moving around so much. The only 100% authentic teacher of the Bible is… well, God lol. Through His Holy Spirit I’m learning and discerning.

Man, the devil blurs the line so much. He has no filter or boundary, so you must test the spirit even with a communication you KNOW is usually from God. THAT’S how close it’s getting.

3But I fear, lest somehow, as the serpent deceived Eve by his craftiness, so your minds may be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ. 4For if he who comes preaches another Jesus whom we have not preached, or if you receive a different spirit which you have not received, or a different gospel which you have not accepted—you may well put up with it!

2 Corinthians 11: 3,4

20Then the beast was captured, and with him the false prophet who worked signs in his presence, by which he deceived those who received the mark of the beast and those who worshiped his image. These two were cast alive into the lake of fire burning with brimstone.

Revelation 19: 20

Love you. Mean it!

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